How do you absorb THAT? We sat in the doctor's office looking at each other, trying to figure out whether we really heard what the doctor had said. But the silence that filled the room, and the tears that filled my eyes, were, none-the-less, real. The results were in: The tumor that had been scraped out of my husbands bladder had indeed passed through the bladder wall and invaded the surrounding muscle. And it was positive for that feared enemy... cancer - stage III in all effects due to the enlarged kidney and ureter that remain.
Since that day in November, Rob has experienced so many emotional roller coaster rides that he finds it hard some days to stand with the firm footing of knowing which path to follow. His choices aren't enough of a variety for either of us right now, especially in lieu of the time one needs to be made.
But this afternoon, Rob's family doctor for 38+ years gave him some good and honest advice: "Give yourself every chance you can, Robert."
So I imagine that even though the road ahead is unknown and sprinkled with fear, surgery is going to give him that precious "chance." Although, he is holding on to the fact that he reserves the right to change his mind. Yes, this is still the Rob I know and love! :)
Rob is strong, has a firm foundation of faith in our Lord, and is filled with His peace. He is being comforted from within, and it's now holding him steady on the outside, too. He is embracing life for all it's worth! It's going to be a long and unknown road that lies ahead, but God is in charge of it all, and we're good with that. Rob's strength and continuing sense of humor amidst these trials so amaze me. He is one awesome man!
The surgery is scheduled for Thursday, January 10th. I will be blogging daily at that point as I am able, to keep you informed about Rob, the surgery, recovery, results, prayer requests, etc. Until then, I may make an appearance or two here. I will try to be mostly factual, although writing is my release from the real world... or to the real world... or both. ;) Please bear with my cup running over...
Thanking you in advance for the love and prayers and support... It means the world to us both, and we love you all more than words can say.
In Love and In Peace *
