Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Time...

Our Thanksgiving... Reasons to smile! :)
Time... I don't know where it goes, even though we're in it all the time.

I pray your Thanksgiving was good... that it filled you with more happy memories and helped you to realize all the blessings you're surrounded with every day.  Ours did.  :)

Rob has been doing pretty well lately.  No doctor appointments scheduled until after the first of the year, which is nice.  We enjoy these breaks in what's become routine for him.

His eye is continuing to heal from the laser surgery, however, he's starting to experience progressing changes with the other eye now.  If it continues, we'll have to get him in to the eye specialist before his January appointment, because it may indicate the lattice's are starting to tear  --  the other retina starting to detach.  We're supposed to be watching for these changes, and Rob is afraid it may be starting.  So we will stay on top of this.

 November 2013
I sometimes forget about where Rob is.  Day after day becomes normal, and for a brief moment here and there we forget about the big C.  We like to.  But the effects of it are always looming.  We went to see our granddaughter in her Christmas program last weekend.  We were only out for about 2 hours, but it completely wiped Rob out.  We got home and he slept for hours from the exertion of walking and staying awake, and just being out.  The same thing happened when we went out for my birthday dinner last week.

I get so swallowed up in everyday living... working, keeping up the home front, cooking  -  that sometimes I forget.  Or maybe I just don't want to remember.  But when I see this big, gentle-giant of a man, become so exhausted after so little, it hurts inside.  I watch him sleep as the evening progresses.  And I watch when I leave for work each morning.  And I watch when I go to bed.  He's so tired.  Even in the wee hours of the morning, now, I go and watch him.  I check to see that he's breathing.  Just to make sure.  And it's in these dark and quiet hours that I remember what I don't want to remember.  Even when I try not to.  
A tired guy

But I remain hopeful nonetheless.

And thankful.  For the time.  The time that is going so fast and standing still.

I know that God works all things for good.  And even though I don't see the big picture, He does.  And as always, I'm good with that.

It's nearly 3am and I'm going to go snuggle into the warmth of the night that's left, as the new day will be here before I know it.  

And there's still much to do.

Our other reasons to smile. :)


Be blessed, because you are.


In Love and In Peace,

Cheri ♥




1 comment:

  1. Chemo makes you very tired, I don't know if it ever goes away, I am still so exhausted. If I go to the dr the next day I spend in bed, to a park or something with the children I may be down for two days to a week, that is completely normal. I know know so many people facing cancer that all have the same problem, we are completely exhausted from life.

    I need a few more surgeries and they are trying to get my lungs to function right. I wear oxygen all the time now because my lungs do not open and close wide, just small movements so now I have more carbon dioxide in my blood them oxygen, so I have to wait til they get a handle on that before I can go for the next one. Are they doing a PET scan on Rob to see if there are any lingering cells? Just stay positive and Rob needs to rest when his body says rest. Love and prayers to your whole family,You are such loving people you deserve more years.

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