Soon We'll Know

Tomorrow is almost here.  Another tomorrow in a list of days that come and go in a flash, and disappear into eternity.

This new tomorrow will give us the results of the pre-chemo body scan, and find out if they've figured out a way to help us with getting the needed chemo treatments.  And after that, we will be at the Social Security Administration to speed our application for review due to Rob's diagnosis, rather than waiting the usual processing time  -  per their request.  It's going to be a full day within those morning hours.

Are we ready?  Maybe not completely ready, but resigned.  It's like Rob is being led down an unknown hallway, and I'm close behind.  And we're trusting that we're in the right place at the right time.  It's quiet, and amazingly calm.  Although I've noticed our breaths are coming quicker.  And we're learning how to say so much by just looking at each other.

Rob is my comforter, my protector.  Even with all he's going through.  Yesterday, I had a bit of an emotional breakdown, and sobbed for what seemed like hours.  I told him I'm not strong, and that I'm scared.  He helped it be okay.  He helped me be okay.  Like he always does.  And I spent the day in my quiet zone, and prayed, and recharged.  My strength returned to be the wife I need to be, I want to be.  Thank you for the prayers surrounding us both.  You have no idea how they are protecting us, strengthening us, helping us to cope.  

Even though Rob has not regained all of his strength, and though he spends much of the day sleeping, he still has his wit about him, his goofy sense of humor, and most importantly, his laughter and the smile that lights him brightly.  He still makes me laugh all the time, even when I'm falling apart.  And it helps to pull me back together.  Pull us back together.

He is gaining back some of his weight, as his appetite has been returning more each day.  That's a good thing if you know Rob! :)

We spend some afternoons and evenings watching old classic movies and catching up on TV shows in our DVR system.  It's been fun being able to do this together, even if one (or both of us) nod off here and there. 

So, though we are still without a refrigerator (another long story for those who don't follow us on facebook), it was still a good day.  We count our blessings all the time, even if our focus strays in the chaos here and there.  When we just stop and rest in the 'now' of life, we are truly thankful to be blessed as we are.  Blessed with family, blessed with beautiful and loving friends (some which we don't even know yet), and blessed with so many good things that are working in our favor.

What I feel us doing in my heart... (stock photo)

We just need to keep our focus on high, rather than on low.  To see our future with new eyes, not old ones.  To always live in hope and in joy... in the moment.  For each moment matters.  So much.

I'll update more tomorrow night with what the day brings to us.  

Until then, really be blessed.

In Love and In Peace,

Cheri ♥