Day Five - Angry Baer and Bear

I have to start out with an explanation of sorts...

When Rob and I were dating back in the late seventies, he used to wear a dark tee shirt with big white letters, "BAER" across the front.   

And deeper into this story now... 
Years after Rob and I lost our way, I was in a bad car accident that left me with a closed head injury, and MUCH memory loss.  The rehab people working with "retraining" me told me I had lost much of my past for good.  There was one, though, that told me that all my life was in a file cabinet in my head, and I just had to find what drawer things were filed in.  When Rob first got back in touch with me in December of 2010, I didn't remember much other than some ugly stuff.  Stuff I didn't want to remember.    Slowly though, as I communicated with Rob in early 2011, I started "seeing" photographs of him in my head.  From the late seventies.  When we dated.  And the first memory file I "found" was of him standing in his BAER shirt, wearing his Dad's hat.  And then I kept finding more and more files, and seeing more and more photographs, then actual movie-like clips.  And my past, my Rob, returned to me. ♥  

So Rob is the first BAER.  

This icy-cold Michigan morning, I was the other BEAR...

In a flurry of words and emotions, I told Rob to find his 'fight', that I could see it slipping away, and I wanted him to come back to me.  There was some growling and snarling in the woods, and as fast as it came, the rumble was over.  And he was up walking.  :)  And I was cheering him on!  When we were back in our quiet, he told me he needed that reminder, that kick in the bottom, that flurry of words that are not part of who we are.  I told him that I love him, and I want more memories in my head, and in my heart, and in my life.  He agreed.  It's all good. ♥

He rested, and he walked again, even farther.  His surgeon stopped by and removed the NGT, and he can have small sips of water and ice chips today.  If all goes well, tomorrow we'll try the liquid diet once more, and see if we can get his symphony playing again!  They're tuning up, we're just waiting for the performance! :)

I'll update more this evening... Until then, be blessed, and enjoy the sunshine!

In Love and In Peace,

Cheri ♥